Rambly


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I’m feeling all rambly tonight for some reason.

 I was sleeping all sound and woke to the sound of my phone whistling at me.


 ...and my mind starts wandering... asking me questions ...

Things going round and round in my head ... so I write them down.

I don't think I am the only one that has these thoughts, but who knows.

What have I done?

What am I doing?

Did I do enough?

Did I do the things I was supposed to do or anything of importance at all?

Where am I going ... is this it?

Am I ... Was I kind enough?

Did I ... Do I care enough?

Did I care at all?

Did I give all I could.

Do I give all I can?

Did I pray enough or love enough?

Do I?

What remains... What is next? 

What is the plan?

Is my heart full of love or is it just a lackluster dim faded thing?

Do I need to change ... or stay the same?

What do people think when they think of me?

Do I care to know... do I want to?

Would I be pleased with their thoughts?

What does God think of me?

Is He pleased with me?

I want to know.

Would I be pleased with what He says?

Am I?

There is a book that starts out "It's not about you."

So why do I make it about me?

Because God made it about me when He sent Jesus.

He made it about "What do I do with Jesus?  What do I do because of Jesus?"

He is the answer to all the questions that come in the middle of the night.


So that because He is pleased with the Son, He is pleased with me.

He is the love and the caring and kindness and giving.

He is the completion of everything and every one.

Because He is more than enough, I am enough in Him.

Because He loves, I can love.

He gave ... so that I have something ...  Someone to give.

He is the Alpha and Omega ... so He is my plan.



Ramble on?



Ramble over.

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