Not At All


Even when I am feeling down.

Even when I am feeling far from Him.

Even when I fail every trial and test that comes.

Even when I am at my worst.

Even when I am filled with guilty feelings or regret and memories of everything I did wrong.

Even then... His love and faithfulness sustains me.   Knowing that all of His promises are for me keeps me humble before Him.   Or should I say humiliated?

He has never failed me.    He has saved me.  He has provided for me.  He has made me a new creation.

He has filled me with complete awe and fear of His righteousness.   Because how can someone like me even exist in His presence?

He has taught me to never doubt Him... to never underestimate His power and His will.

Do I understand Him?   Not at all.

Do I know that He understands me?   Always.

I have experienced His love in many ways... even though I never deserved any of it.   And Never Will.

Except for Jesus.

Yes.   God is love.   Love incarnate.  

He is also righteous... a kind of goodness that does not bend or break or have a single solitary millisecond of an inkling to do wrong. 

I am so thankful.

So blessed.

So completely baffled by Him.


#outrageousbelief


  

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